As my summer is coming to a close, I'm beginning to realize how hard it's going to be for me to go back to work. I have a beautiful little girl now. This is the first school year that I'll start as a mommy. There are many things that I look forward to--telling my students and coworkers all about her, showing them pictures, picking her up from her babysitter's, etc. There are also things that I am starting to dwell on...things that a stay-at-home-mommy may take for granted. There are things that I may miss....her first time to crawl, her first words, her first steps...Hopefully I'll be there for all of these things, but I have come to realize that I may not be there for all of this. Gosh, I used to think I could not be a stay-at-home mom. Now, I think I could eat my words!! Addison has developed such a personality and has brought me such joy. I know now that I'll be leaving work a lot earlier than I used to, using more of my work time wisely, and hurrying home to pick up my little girl. I never dreamed I could love and care for someone this much. God has truly blessed me and Paul. We now can't imagine our lives without her! Everyone, wish me luck, as my first day of work is Friday. I know it will get easier. Just these last few days seem to be flying by! Wow! I hope each summer won't be this hard! This time next year, Addison will be walking, doing some talking, and I'm sure will be a handful. I can't wait! :)
Hang in there. We all make sacrifices when we have kids. I will be at home for a while, but while my husband is the brains of the company, I keep it running smoothly. Without me, I have a feeling things will get overlooked and will start to get unorganized. A good piece of advice I heard...ask your sitter to not tell you if she had a first and you werent there. You and Paul will eventually see it for your "first" time.
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